You are often times the hardest thing to directly address because you are so darn complex. You have a way of making a person feel every imaginable feeling, feelings of being in control and yet so out of it. I often wonder if there is a method to your madness, a formula to your ways, a key to your doors. Whatever the secret is, I want in, because I often find myself feeling like I'm drowning in your waves. You see in this life I've been taught I shouldn't love you or else I'd lose you, but I swear that never meant I'd have to hate you by force. I wish I had a choice but often the hardships of some days make it easy. I appreciate you don't get me wrong because I recognize that there are so many people who aren't given a second chance, but LISTEN...you do not control my joy, nor my happiness. Whether the waves you bring crash into me, I will not be shaken. I stand firm on a foundation that says I am free. I've been free ever since the day He spoke the words, "It is finished". So to you I say thank you. Thank you for teaching me that often times although the hardest thing to directly address is your darn complexity, I awake each morning and face each complexity head on. That when you make me feel every feeling imaginable, I am blessed because I am alive because I still can feel. You see I often wonder if there is a method to your madness, a formula to your ways, a key to your doors. I often want in. Yet, I realize that the key to the door is simply waking up and trying again and again. Laughing, crying, living freely, again, and again. Why? Well because a life worth living is one lived well. So dear life...