"I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."
I usually end each year with written reflections and goals. However, this year I've decided to do things differently and just share some goals. This decision was made because so many different events occurred in 2015 and I'm still processing through many of them. If you know me personally this is also my open request for accountability in accomplishing the tasks at hand.
So here it is, all dramatic and stuff. Yeah stuff...
Two goals I have for 2016 are to stop using the word "SORRY" so dang much and to, "Say Yes" more often (I'll explain the second goal another time or you can just read Shonda Rime's book called, "Year of Yes"). The first goal includes the sub-points of me not apologizing to people for being who God created me to be. Not letting past mistakes or hurts dictate living out the fulfilled life God wants me to live as Eunice. As well as not living my life as some diluted version of myself I've created in order to never be disliked, disapproved, or seen as unapproachable, aggressive, or angry. The reality is you can only know who is in your corner if you're living life being apologetically you and I've spent far too many years trying to be everything to everyone but myself. In some ways I have this huge fear of disappointing people and not being liked, when I'm actually disappointing myself and missing out on great relationships because of this (that too is another story for another day, or you can check out my first chasing proverbs post HERE for that "brief" revelation).
There is this nifty video (see below) Pantene created a couple of years ago that people bash, but I LOVE. It explains one of my goals for 2016 quite well. There are a lot of negative comments about the video, but personally the message spoke to me in regards to my life and of course is not indicative of ALL women. I also wouldn't be quick to call this video feminist propaganda. However, I would've suggested to Pantene that the video start by saying, "Why do some women..." rather than, "Why do women...". Oh and of course there is the argument that some men suffer from excessive sorry-ness (that is not a word but it's okay I'm not sorry for making it one), but that's besides my point. None the less, I just really have a tendency to say sorry before or after I say or share my personal opinion about anything. Not because what I am saying is harsh, or wrong, but because I am scared of the possible backlash it could receive or the possibility of my opinion not being liked or accepted. I fear being labeled angry or crazy. However, I think I have great input, thoughts and dreams to offer the world. So at the heart of it all...should it matter what people think when I am living out my life being who God has created and called me to be, and living in His will and walking out His purpose for my life. Well, unfortunately I care, and that is something I want to change drastically this year.
I read a couple verses in my bible the other day and I felt God was speaking to my heart and mind. I think I will make them one of a few passages of scripture for the upcoming year as I walk these goals out. It reads:
"I, yes, am the one who comforts you. So why are you afraid of mere humans, who wither like the grass and disappear? Yet you have forgotten the Lord, your Creator, the one who stretched out the sky like a canopy and laid the foundations of the earth. Will you remain in constant fear of human oppressors? Will you continue to fear the anger of your enemies? Where is their fury and anger now? It is gone! Soon all your captives will be released! Imprisonment, starvation, and death will not be your fate! For I am the Lord your God, who stirs up the sea, causing its waves to roar. My name is the Lord of Heaven's Armies. And I have put my words in your mouth and hidden you safely in my hand. I stretched out the sky like canopy and laid the foundations of the earth. I am the one who says to Israel, 'You are my people!'"
Have a blessed day beautiful people! May God do the unexpected for you in 2016!
#sorrynotsorry #byebye2015 #dontletthedoorhityouonthewayout #hello2016 #theyearoffreedom
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