"She believed she could, so she did." -C.S. Lewis

Not sure how to adequately explain this moment. So here I go in the simplest way...NERVE WRECKING. Somehow I knew this day would come, and I've been afraid. The ideas in my head suddenly in plain sight for all to see, it's the scariest thing I have ever done. Letting more people into my world, really our world, and yet being so far from perfect. So I'll try and articulate my feelings well and without fear.

I think one of my biggest struggles has been trying to please and be liked by everyone. I have had my own fair share of experiences with people who have spoken negatively over my life and for most of my life I have let those words control me. People have walked out on me, and  I thought it was because I was too much or not enough. I did not know who I was, and I'm not even sure if those who walked out on me walked out on me or the person I tried to be for them. Maybe the complexity in my character was actually the girl that tried so hard to be liked, warring with the girl within that wants so badly to be free.

You see, I don't know if any of that's true, or if I can entirely blame myself for bad "break ups" or emotional "breakdowns". I'm not even sure if you can relate. Yet, I have spent years hating myself, and not one moment of blame has brought me any closer to having certain people back in my life or made living as my true self any easier. My femininity often scares me, and  I am literally afraid of being "too" pretty, sexual, or perceived as trying too hard. So somehow I try harder for acceptance and yet mask my beauty to avoid the risk of being seen and not being enough or too much. Wondering, what is wrong with me embracing my beauty and expressing it righteously but wholeheartedly?

It has been through some very painful seasons and mistakes that I am now learning how to fight my fears and allow God to work on my heart, mind, and He still is. Luckily, during this specific season, this website, mission, pieces of my heart and who I am as a person comes to light. I only imagine that like me, many other woman can relate to this epidemic of not feeling good enough, and I have dreams and hopes to someday be given the opportunity to help break the chains that bind so many of us.

I hope my journey and our journeys are the beginning of the end to a society that makes women often feel inadequate.

One life changing thought God showed me a few years ago dealt with the creation of Adam and Eve. You see in my weakness, a moment of despair, I recall God reminding me of the creation story. Everything God created was good. On the first day he created the heavens and the earth, followed by light, darkness, land, water, animals, and then man. He did all of that, rested, and yet despite all the goodness, something was not right. Something was incomplete, missing still. As a result he placed Adam into a deep sleep and from man came woman. And as that story would unfold in my head, I remember hearing God speak to my heart,

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Eunice, creation was and is incomplete without you. Everything I created was magnificent and yet even in all it's beauty, it was not complete in my eyes until I created you".

How wonderful is that?

So here I am, shamelessly deciding here, right now, to show you and tell you that without you and I, this world would be incomplete. So live wholeheartedly and live knowing that you are more than enough. You are beautiful, strong, smart, witty, intelligent, and beautifully complex.  We have intricately woven stories to tell. Stories of redemption, hope, joy, sadness and much more. Chase your dreams, just as I am chasing writing, and when you catch them walk boldly in them. You and I both have gifts the world needs, and creation is incomplete without you and what you have to offer.

Please join me on this journey, and together may you and I find courage to often times just be and better yet...

Chase.